It’s strange, this absence from you
I don’t let myself see you,
yet, I always feel you
always Missing you
always Hungry to taste your words
~
These past days blurring
So busy and focused
Determined to not be distracted,
Right now life’s demanding every bit of me
Putting distance between all interactions
except for my children and those helping me
Knowing it has to be done
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Feeling lost, yet freed to just be
A mother fighting for her Life
Fighting for her offspring
It’s taking every ounce of thought
every beat of heart
every bit of drive and energy
A soldier I am in my WWW111
Going up against a human monster called He
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Wondering if you are wondering about me?
Hoping and praying that you’re feeling me
~
I reach out to you in every quiet moment
surprised at how often I think of you
Feeling afraid too, wondering
if it’s all a dream
a silly schoolgirl fantasy
of reading you being into me
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Always a nagging ache
of missing your thoughts
and the warmth of you
Not counting days
just being
afraid of needing
Not empty because you are somehow
always with me
~
Knowing that beyond a doubt
you are the only one who holds
the key to the sacred part of me,
the part of me no one else has access to
Only you and always you
and it gives me a feeling
of warmth and security
knowing that you have been
and always are the one I want
when I think of wanting anyone
~
Certain in the certainty
of my utter fascination
and desire for you
You touch me in a way
that invades and engulfs me
in every color of feeling
~
Awakened long ago
are so many desires
swirling within
passions and new dreams
closings and openings
beginnings and endings
~
You ignite new lives in me
You bring out new sides of me
meant only to be touched by you
My needs are your needs
~
You exist
in the forefront
of my thoughts
You are a constant spark
