Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.


His lying eyes



It was never love

he never loved me

because if now

when he’s angry

he throws knives in my back

of the words I gifted him about my children & family

of the pains I confided to him with open trust as if he were the friend he said he was, but

if now, as then he doesn’t get his way he again, as always goes into demented tirades

he uses any insult, steely cruelty and hateful name

he uses my every vulnerability gleefully against me

He lied, he always has, he still does he lies about who he doesn’t lovehe lies to them about me

He lies about me to everyone

He never changed, he never changes, he only rearranges to manipulate and use

He lives to confuse

to abuse, his modus operandi

He always was and always will be un true, untrustworthy, completely duplicitous, cunningly cruel

I thank God every day that I had the wisdom to get away

I thank God that I saw the red flags of his hate

I thank God for giving me the strength to truly love me

no matter how many times he who claimed to love me tried to destroy, control and dishonor me

I can only pray that he never preys on another’s open heart

I can only pray that they are given the grace to see thru his deceiving light

to truly see the devil behind his smiling, beguiling, love defiling

lying eyes