A twist of fate

 

A twist of fate

and

I entered your orbit

 

your Soul

written as words I read

without thought

mesmerized within

the magnetic pull of You

 

You,

burned brighter

than a galaxy of suns

white hot intensity

my only one

my guiding light

my darkest night

 

I, your Venus

worshiping you

circling you

captured by the pull of your heart

my sole reflection, waiting

in the vastness of space and time

my other half

my salvation and sin

my beginning and end

 

It has always been you

and you

it will always be

you,

forever a part of me

 

Even as I drift…

drift away

into the dreamless void

blackhole gape

no screams escape

an empty fate

I drift, drift, drift away 

where your nothing waits

no love~no hate

dead are my pleas

where you have blocked

your sun

from me

~

 

 

*photo not mine, trying to find the source, damn u google image search…

I Don’t Have All the Words

I don’t hold

all the words,

but I wish I did

~

I feel them screaming

beneath my skin

~

Rememberings of me

before

I learned how

to

shut up

shut out

shut down

and

forget I existed

~

That is the past

and

as God is my witness

it will hurt me never again

~

©justagirllost2 

~

*top image: Sergei Sviatchenko

*bottom image: Allison Rathan

It Doesn’t Matter Anymore

 

It doesn’t matter anymore

where the tears end or begin

because no matter how

perfect I try to be

love will never fly to me

~

It doesn’t matter anymore

if you might be him

I cannot bear the silence

pain and wondering

~

It doesn’t matter anymore

if hope once lived

I’m never accepted

despite my sins

~

It doesn’t matter anymore

because

these walls I will rebuild again

it’s safer to be locked in an ivory tower

alone within my hell again

~

 

©justagirllost2  ~Monique

My Dear Alice…

~

“My dear Alice,

Heartbreak won’t heal

and sadness won’t pass

unless you drown first in tears

and swim through the looking glass.”

~

 

©justagirllost2 ~ Monique

*photo taken from Pinterest

It’s a strange thing

~

It’s a strange thing

the times I feel the most overwhelmed

drowned in unknown emotions and chaos

are the times I shut down, inside

I lose my words in frozen thoughts

locked away in a numb place

my fortress of solitude

where I go to lick my wounds

where I hide

buried under ice fields of pain

until I’m ready again

drained of my sorrow

to face the insanity of hate

in the light of day

and let the words

melt the hurt away

~

©justagirllost2

*photo mine

Living Dead Girl

 

This living dead girl still bleeds

~

©justagirllost2

 

*image not mine, trying to find the source