Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.


6 Comments

Happy November 🍂 🍁 🌾

My oldest daughter and her boyfriend brought over 4 pumpkins on Halloween night. As always, they were running a bit late, so we decided to carve them up the next evening.  Everyone went trick or treating while I sat outside giving out halloween candy while the mosquitoes munched on me.

The next night they came over again and we searched the internet for stencils, printed them out and got to work.  Cleaning out the insides was really messy.  We saved all the seeds to bake later.  Pumpkin seeds are supposed to be really good for you.

794a56d129c75b47210bd44d9a60ebd4

We used a pumpkin carving knife set to start and added a few weird instruments from the kitchen, like an ice pick and a nut thing-a-ma-diddy that helped.  It’s HARD to carve those gourds!

But, I believe we did some excellent pumpkin carvings and I wanted to share them.

🙂

lulupumpkin

 

*Lulu before the pumpkins were carved.  She loved them for some reason and was rolling around them, marking her territory of kitty love.

~

workingonpumpkins

*Working on the pumpkins.  

~

nickpumpkins

*Carved pumpkins!!!  From left to right:  an Alien (mine) a Bunny (Abby & Jacob’s) a Jack-O-Lantern Face (Chloe’s) and the last one is supposed to be Rick Grimes from The Walking Dead (Nick’s)

Happy November y’all!  🍂 🍁 🌾 

 

~©justagirllost2

*Top photo found on Pinterest, other photos mine

Advertisements


Leave a comment

rebel just for kicks now

RebelRainbow

 

My new favorite song and band and video!!  Enjoy!  ❤

Niki

~

 

“Feel It Still”

Can’t keep my hands to myself
Think I’ll dust em off, put em back up on the shelf
In case my little baby girl is in need
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillGot another mouth to feed
Leave her with a baby sitter, mama call the grave digger
Gone with the fallen leaves
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillWe could fight a war for peace
Give in to that easy living
Goodbye to my hopes and dreams
Stop flipping for my enemies
We could wave until the walls come down
(I’m a rebel just for kicks now)
It’s time to give a little tip
Kids in the middle, move over till it falls
Don’t bother meIs it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming back?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks, yeah
Your love is an abyss for my heart to eclipse now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillOoh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still

~

“Feel It Still” is the second single from the upcoming album “Woodstock,” following “Noise Pollution [Version A, Vocal Up Mix 1.3],” which was released on December 2nd, 2016. While originally planned for another project entitled “Doomin + Gloomin,” “Noise Pollution” will appear as the final track on Woodstock.

~

 

 

 

~

and that’s what I been doing…   

©justagirllost2

 


2 Comments

Black holes and my heart are old friends

supermassive-black-hole

Funny how every time I’m feeling at peace, my mother can skin me alive and rip out my heart in a matter of moments.

Seems it’s the times I’m finally getting things together in my own heart, mind, soul and I’m doing the best I know knowing it’s ok and that God’s in control.

It’s like there is something inside of her that has this mission to annihilate me.

It’s a fact of life, no more no less.  It is what it is.  I love her, she loves me, but in completely different ways.

I can take the anger, I can’t take the contradiction.  To have loved me more than life itself cannot mean except for the last ten years.  I can’t even put any thing into words right now.  My disappointment in her, me for letting ALL my wisdom and zen FLY out the window and take the bait and get crazy angry,  my sadness at all of it is too raw.  I can’t hide from it.  I can’t, I won’t return to my old escapes.  I have nothing to dull the pain.

I am trying to see what I can do to make myself better.  That’s all I can do.  I know there are so many lessons in it for me.  At this moment clarity is such a new bitter pill to swallow.  New ways to think, to change my thinking… a new kind of pain.

I just need to rest my heart and sit in stunned silence at what it truly means to trust in what is so easy to trust in when I’m at peace.

I’m empty of poetry

I’m empty of joy

just for today at least, maybe tomorrow

I hope not, I truly hope not

I’m just tired, so tired

I need to rest

~

©justagirllost2


8 Comments

My Mother’s Day eve

768f01874f0e67b4f75a39db16326c11

~

Last night my dad boiled tons of crawfish. ❤

My mom and I’s Mother’s Day gift.  (His too)  🙂  They were HUGE! Like mini lobsters

My ex-husband helped and provided the drinks.  He’s a great guy.

My oldest daughter, Abby and her boyfriend, Jacob were here as well as my son, Nick and my youngest daughter Chloe.

My mom, of course and my dad.

Oh, and the dog waiting under the table for anything that happened to fall.

My son made dessert, he’s the baker of the family.

We ate outside on the patio.  It was a gorgeous afternoon. Perfect company, perfect weather and a perfect Mother’s Day eve.

Today I get to cook lunch and the kids are sleeping late.

I am truly blessed and I hope and pray that everyone of you has a fabulous day and evening

You are all special and unique in the beauty that makes you YOU!

❤ ❤ ❤

~

©justagirllost2 ~ Monique

*photo mine


9 Comments

Almost Un Whole

image

 

Recriminations

Revelations

Reverberations

Earthquakes

Eruptions,

of others

My mind~body~soul

Shaken,

almost un whole

Aftershocks,

like ticking clocks

Tick-tock

doors locked

Running for cover,

my heart

Soul-tired

I am drained dry

Almost un whole

~

 

 

*image from Pinterest