
It was never love
he never loved me
because if now
when he’s angry
he throws knives in my back
of the words I gifted him about my children & family
of the pains I confided to him with open trust as if he were the friend he said he was, but
if now, as then he doesn’t get his way he again, as always goes into demented tirades
he uses any insult, steely cruelty and hateful name
he uses my every vulnerability gleefully against me
He lied, he always has, he still does he lies about who he doesn’t lovehe lies to them about me
He lies about me to everyone
He never changed, he never changes, he only rearranges to manipulate and use
He lives to confuse
to abuse, his modus operandi
He always was and always will be un true, untrustworthy, completely duplicitous, cunningly cruel
I thank God every day that I had the wisdom to get away
I thank God that I saw the red flags of his hate
I thank God for giving me the strength to truly love me
no matter how many times he who claimed to love me tried to destroy, control and dishonor me
I can only pray that he never preys on another’s open heart
I can only pray that they are given the grace to see thru his deceiving light
to truly see the devil behind his smiling, beguiling, love defiling
lying eyes
~
©justagirllost2
Monique
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