Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.


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CHRISTY

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The past is always present ~ Immortality in ink

bleeds from the heart of Love

beyond the reach of time in ebbings and flowings

sweptaway keptaway sinking thinking

what if this is all there is
what if there is so much more?

the present

my words always true untainted by reason

as constant as the tides heavenly sun rising high

always true ~ as constant as the tides

no rhyme or reason ~ no longer my own

owned by the one who holds my heart

my every thought eternally bound to only you

Dance with the Angels, my beautiful Christy

You were an angel over all of us

You swept us ‘neath your wings

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Always with love we’ll remember you,

Always your love will pull us thru

you’re forever in our hearts

and forever in our dreams

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I miss you and I love you, my sweet Christy ❤

I pray that you are resting gently at peace

RIP ~ 05/13/2017  ~ Christina Gigliotti

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There’s

so much i wanna say

about how she influenced and affected me and others

ripples on an ocean

she was like a star falling into a sea

touching so many

in ways we didn’t know we needed,

but

this is all I have for now…

prayers for her and her family

prayers for us all

amen

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©justagirllost2


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my forever craves

WildGypsy

your touch

skin frenzy whispers

your words

balm honeyed dictions

collide blaze high

conflagration

i’m cured ~ i’m cursed

my new affliction

unleashed, i’m real

like a bird i fly

i soar ~ i feel

i’m electric love

in a paradise

of your words, your mind

you reveal my heart

every piece of you

crashes thru my veins

kamikaze lust

rapture calls my name

you’re the living blood

pumping thru my heart

you’re the only soul

my forever craves

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©justagirllost2

*image ~ Ansuya by Keith Drosin


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Easter Eggs 2017

I love dying Easter eggs with my kids.  Now that they’re older it’s more fun, actually.  It’s become a family tradition (I hope) of having fun, hanging out, being creative together.

I used to only dye my eggs one color.  Never thought out of the box. My kids are out of the box thinkers and my, my, my how high and colorful their thoughts fly!

My children are my masterpiece.  My children teach me in every way.  My children are artist and canvas.  My children open my eyes to a brave new world of possibility. My children are me loved into reality.

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Niki ❤

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rebel just for kicks now

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My new favorite song and band and video!!  Enjoy!  ❤

Niki

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“Feel It Still”

Can’t keep my hands to myself
Think I’ll dust em off, put em back up on the shelf
In case my little baby girl is in need
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillGot another mouth to feed
Leave her with a baby sitter, mama call the grave digger
Gone with the fallen leaves
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillWe could fight a war for peace
Give in to that easy living
Goodbye to my hopes and dreams
Stop flipping for my enemies
We could wave until the walls come down
(I’m a rebel just for kicks now)
It’s time to give a little tip
Kids in the middle, move over till it falls
Don’t bother meIs it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming back?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks, yeah
Your love is an abyss for my heart to eclipse now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillOoh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still

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“Feel It Still” is the second single from the upcoming album “Woodstock,” following “Noise Pollution [Version A, Vocal Up Mix 1.3],” which was released on December 2nd, 2016. While originally planned for another project entitled “Doomin + Gloomin,” “Noise Pollution” will appear as the final track on Woodstock.

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and that’s what I been doing…   

©justagirllost2

 


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Right here waiting… everything changes

Another song(s) by Staind.  
The thing I love about music is that it speak’s so many of the words or thoughts I cannot say.  My heart feels it, yet my lips remain silent.   Music is the only way I can write poetry, sometimes.   ❤
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©justagirllost2

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Right Here
Lyrics

I know I’ve been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I?ve made
I’ve got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending
It’s as much as I can take
And you’re so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I’ve made a commitment
I’m willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can’t you just forgive me
I don’t want to relive all the mistakes
I’ve made along the way

But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting

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Darkness is a temporary haven

I curled up into my mind and held myself tight

I wrote to the one who hurt me, my thoughts are never tongue-tied

I was bold, ALL CAPS, adamant about what my boundaries are, Truthful about what I believe, want, need.  Brutally honest.  Pure feeling and electricity running thru my words.

At the end, after three messages, finally, I got it

I realized it didn’t matter if they read my messages or not. All that mattered is that I KNOW the truth and I know who I am, what I deserve and what it means to love.

I don’t need to prove I’m right, not anymore.  God’s the only One who knows my heart. He’s the only One I answer to and for.

I realize I never truly want to hurt those I love

I remember

I see the beautiful, loving, giving, truly radiant things their presence brings to me

Stepping away into the silence, the darkness of feeling everything, such a pain, such a peace

I realize this life is a never ending learning how to Be, how to love, how to clearly see

I let the anger, hurt, pain, tears wash over me

I know that I’m not happy living sad

The darkness is my haven temporarily, until I’m ready to face the warmth of loving, being loved again

That’s where I am meant to live

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©justagirllost2

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*A favorite song from one of my most favorite groups, Staind.  I LOVE all of their music.  Their words are soulful, introspective, real, raw and speak to me in so many ways. Past and present.  This song is one of my favorites.  ❤

So Far Away
Lyrics

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
‘Cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing okay
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me ’cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I’m so afraid of waking
Please don’t shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don’t shake me

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today