Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.


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My Feelings Never Wane

I’d fight with fire just to get close to you…

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My feelings

those deep, dark, passionate

delicious feelings

relentless wants

undying needs

of desire ~ love ~ lust

never wane

they pulse pizzicato, firm and strong

stronger

flowing thru me, vibrating my being

sighing touching tasting streaming

My thoughts never stop touching

searching for yours

My lips never stop aching

throbbing for a taste, a bite

a lingering lick of your skin

My body never stops humming, quivering

burning to feel your lips once more

and though life is so busy, insanely so right now,

it never drives me to distraction

only you commit that crime

though I am under the weather

oh so tired, I fall into bed as if a rag doll

knowing you breathe and exist

knowing you live in my world

you are my forever breath of life

You are my muse, my poetry

my inspiration, my desire, my delight

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 ©justagirllost2

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*top image by serge marshennikov

* bottom photo mine

 

 


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rebel just for kicks now

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My new favorite song and band and video!!  Enjoy!  ❤

Niki

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“Feel It Still”

Can’t keep my hands to myself
Think I’ll dust em off, put em back up on the shelf
In case my little baby girl is in need
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillGot another mouth to feed
Leave her with a baby sitter, mama call the grave digger
Gone with the fallen leaves
Am I coming out of left field?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillWe could fight a war for peace
Give in to that easy living
Goodbye to my hopes and dreams
Stop flipping for my enemies
We could wave until the walls come down
(I’m a rebel just for kicks now)
It’s time to give a little tip
Kids in the middle, move over till it falls
Don’t bother meIs it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming
Is it coming back?Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks, yeah
Your love is an abyss for my heart to eclipse now
Might be over now, but I feel it stillOoh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
I been feeling it since 1966 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Ooh woo, I’m a rebel just for kicks now
Let me kick it like it’s 1986 now
Might be over now, but I feel it still
Might of had your fill, but you feel it still

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“Feel It Still” is the second single from the upcoming album “Woodstock,” following “Noise Pollution [Version A, Vocal Up Mix 1.3],” which was released on December 2nd, 2016. While originally planned for another project entitled “Doomin + Gloomin,” “Noise Pollution” will appear as the final track on Woodstock.

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and that’s what I been doing…   

©justagirllost2

 


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Right here waiting… everything changes

Another song(s) by Staind.  
The thing I love about music is that it speak’s so many of the words or thoughts I cannot say.  My heart feels it, yet my lips remain silent.   Music is the only way I can write poetry, sometimes.   ❤
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©justagirllost2

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Right Here
Lyrics

I know I’ve been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I?ve made
I’ve got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending
It’s as much as I can take
And you’re so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting

I’ve made a commitment
I’m willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can’t you just forgive me
I don’t want to relive all the mistakes
I’ve made along the way

But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting

But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting

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Darkness is a temporary haven

I curled up into my mind and held myself tight

I wrote to the one who hurt me, my thoughts are never tongue-tied

I was bold, ALL CAPS, adamant about what my boundaries are, Truthful about what I believe, want, need.  Brutally honest.  Pure feeling and electricity running thru my words.

At the end, after three messages, finally, I got it

I realized it didn’t matter if they read my messages or not. All that mattered is that I KNOW the truth and I know who I am, what I deserve and what it means to love.

I don’t need to prove I’m right, not anymore.  God’s the only One who knows my heart. He’s the only One I answer to and for.

I realize I never truly want to hurt those I love

I remember

I see the beautiful, loving, giving, truly radiant things their presence brings to me

Stepping away into the silence, the darkness of feeling everything, such a pain, such a peace

I realize this life is a never ending learning how to Be, how to love, how to clearly see

I let the anger, hurt, pain, tears wash over me

I know that I’m not happy living sad

The darkness is my haven temporarily, until I’m ready to face the warmth of loving, being loved again

That’s where I am meant to live

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©justagirllost2

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*A favorite song from one of my most favorite groups, Staind.  I LOVE all of their music.  Their words are soulful, introspective, real, raw and speak to me in so many ways. Past and present.  This song is one of my favorites.  ❤

So Far Away
Lyrics

This is my life
Its not what it was before
All these feelings I’ve shared
And these are my dreams
That I’d never lived before
Somebody shake me
‘Cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

These are my words
That I’ve never said before
I think I’m doing okay
And this is the smile
That I’ve never shown before

Somebody shake me ’cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

I’m so afraid of waking
Please don’t shake me
Afraid of waking
Please don’t shake me

Now that we’re here,
It’s so far away
All the struggle we thought was in vain
All in the mistakes,
One life contained
They all finally start to go away
Now that we’re here it’s so far away
And I feel like I can face the day, and I can forgive
And I’m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

 


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Hold me, thrill me, kiss me

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Hold me, hold me

Never let me go until you’ve
Told me, told me
What I want to know and then just
Hold me, hold me
Make me tell you,”I’m in love with you”

Thrill me, thrill me
Walk me down the lane where shadows
Will be, will be
Hiding lovers just the same as
We’ll be, we’ll be
When you make me tell you, “I love you”

They told me, “Be sensible with your new love
Don’t be fooled thinking this is the last you’ll find”
But they never stood in the dark with you love
When you take me in your arms and drive me slowly out of my mind

Kiss me, kiss me
And when you do I’ll know you that you will
Miss me, miss me
If we ever say ‘Adieu’, so
Kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you, “I’m in love with you”

Kiss me, kiss me
And when you do I’ll know you that you will
Miss me, miss me
If we ever say ‘Adieu’, so
Kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you, “I’m in love with you”

Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go

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Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me ~ Mel Carter

 

*a song I love that I was reminded of

*photo mine


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©justagirllost


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Stay with me

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It’s strange, this absence from you

I don’t let myself see you,

yet, I always feel you

always Missing you

always Hungry to taste your words

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These past days blurring

So busy and focused

Determined to not be distracted,

Right now life’s demanding every bit of me

Putting distance between all interactions

except for my children and those helping me

Knowing it has to be done

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Feeling lost, yet freed to just be

A mother fighting for her Life

Fighting for her offspring

It’s taking every ounce of thought

every beat of heart

every bit of drive and energy

A soldier I am in my WWW111

Going up against a human monster called He

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Wondering if you are wondering about me?

Hoping and praying that you’re feeling me

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I reach out to you in every quiet moment

surprised at how often I think of you

Feeling afraid too, wondering

if it’s all a dream

a silly schoolgirl fantasy

of reading you being into me

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Always a nagging ache

of missing your thoughts

and the warmth of you

Not counting days

just being

afraid of needing

Not empty because you are somehow

always with me

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Knowing that beyond a doubt

you are the only one who holds

the key to the sacred part of me,

the part of me no one else has access to

Only you and always you

and it gives me a feeling

of warmth and security

knowing that you have been

and always are the one I want

when I think of wanting anyone

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Certain in the certainty

of my utter fascination

and desire for you

You touch me in a way

that invades and engulfs me

in every color of feeling

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Awakened long ago

are so many desires

swirling within

passions and new dreams

closings and openings

beginnings and endings

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You ignite new lives in me

You bring out new sides of me

meant only to be touched by you

My needs are your needs

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You exist

in the forefront

of my thoughts

You are a constant spark

that burns through
consumes me
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You are my sun by day
my votive candlelight
on silent nights
far, but never far away
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I never wane in my delight
when you cross my mind
when I let you into this corner
of the universe
that is consuming
every moment of time
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You are under my skin
in my heart
reading the poems and thoughts
I send across the sky
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You are mine
and my days wait for yours
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Please, never let me go
I need you to stay
I need you to always find me
Let nothing get in your way
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My soul has kept you tucked away
safe
in a place made for you
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Only you inspire
Only you author
my unwritten parts
Only you have
this inexplicable
insanely beautifully
dark and mystical hold
over me
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Every piece of me has opened up
and waits to be filled with only you
My words wait to sing to you
I wait to dance for you
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I wait to become myself
forever meant to belong to you
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So, please, don’t leave
just stay with me
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©justagirllost2
*photo mine