Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.


Hold me, thrill me, kiss me


Hold me, hold me

Never let me go until you’ve
Told me, told me
What I want to know and then just
Hold me, hold me
Make me tell you,”I’m in love with you”

Thrill me, thrill me
Walk me down the lane where shadows
Will be, will be
Hiding lovers just the same as
We’ll be, we’ll be
When you make me tell you, “I love you”

They told me, “Be sensible with your new love
Don’t be fooled thinking this is the last you’ll find”
But they never stood in the dark with you love
When you take me in your arms and drive me slowly out of my mind

Kiss me, kiss me
And when you do I’ll know you that you will
Miss me, miss me
If we ever say ‘Adieu’, so
Kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you, “I’m in love with you”

Kiss me, kiss me
And when you do I’ll know you that you will
Miss me, miss me
If we ever say ‘Adieu’, so
Kiss me, kiss me
Make me tell you, “I’m in love with you”

Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go
Never, never, never let me go

Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me ~ Mel Carter


*a song I love that I was reminded of

*photo mine


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Stay with me


It’s strange, this absence from you

I don’t let myself see you,

yet, I always feel you

always Missing you

always Hungry to taste your words


These past days blurring

So busy and focused

Determined to not be distracted,

Right now life’s demanding every bit of me

Putting distance between all interactions

except for my children and those helping me

Knowing it has to be done


Feeling lost, yet freed to just be

A mother fighting for her Life

Fighting for her offspring

It’s taking every ounce of thought

every beat of heart

every bit of drive and energy

A soldier I am in my WWW111

Going up against a human monster called He


Wondering if you are wondering about me?

Hoping and praying that you’re feeling me


I reach out to you in every quiet moment

surprised at how often I think of you

Feeling afraid too, wondering

if it’s all a dream

a silly schoolgirl fantasy

of reading you being into me


Always a nagging ache

of missing your thoughts

and the warmth of you

Not counting days

just being

afraid of needing

Not empty because you are somehow

always with me


Knowing that beyond a doubt

you are the only one who holds

the key to the sacred part of me,

the part of me no one else has access to

Only you and always you

and it gives me a feeling

of warmth and security

knowing that you have been

and always are the one I want

when I think of wanting anyone


Certain in the certainty

of my utter fascination

and desire for you

You touch me in a way

that invades and engulfs me

in every color of feeling


Awakened long ago

are so many desires

swirling within

passions and new dreams

closings and openings

beginnings and endings


You ignite new lives in me

You bring out new sides of me

meant only to be touched by you

My needs are your needs


You exist

in the forefront

of my thoughts

You are a constant spark

that burns through
consumes me
You are my sun by day
my votive candlelight
on silent nights
far, but never far away
I never wane in my delight
when you cross my mind
when I let you into this corner
of the universe
that is consuming
every moment of time
You are under my skin
in my heart
reading the poems and thoughts
I send across the sky
You are mine
and my days wait for yours
Please, never let me go
I need you to stay
I need you to always find me
Let nothing get in your way
My soul has kept you tucked away
in a place made for you
Only you inspire
Only you author
my unwritten parts
Only you have
this inexplicable
insanely beautifully
dark and mystical hold
over me
Every piece of me has opened up
and waits to be filled with only you
My words wait to sing to you
I wait to dance for you
I wait to become myself
forever meant to belong to you
So, please, don’t leave
just stay with me
*photo mine

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Music and Me


When I’m very sad

music doesn’t comfort me

I can’t get lost

in music

when I’ve lost my joy

When I’m in a pit of despair

with no way in and no way out

I become all numb

I am all types of sadness

Moans I can’t control

rise through my body




poisons escaping

from my lips



I’m blown

into a cocoon

of nothingness

when I’m heartbroken

I want nothing

rescuing me

from the abyss

of darkness

protecting me

Feelings torture me

I bury them deep

in a quiet place

I pull the shades

I sit and stare

a desolate shell

In the dark

I don’t feel the claws

ripping my heart

It only stings a little

when I have the shadows

to hide

my pain and grief

There’s no comfort

to be found

in any song

or symphony

Music is my enemy


the worst beautiful thing

is salt poured into

open wounds


the worst beautiful thing

mocks me

as it reminds me

of all I’m not

no matter which song

my heart tries to sing


the worst beautiful thing

only reminds me I’m beat

I’m unloved

only makes me wanna run

a stake straight thru

the euphoric singer’s heart


That’s the Hate part


When Love comes

’round again


I feel wanted

by another human


I feel connected

to the universe


Music is the

most beautiful place

to be


I seek out

hoping to feel closer

to my person

Losing myself in every piece

Music is the hand

I hold when

another’s hand holds me

I can lose myself


Secure in another’s

adoring heart

My feelings are free

I can sing out loud

at happy things

I can cry tears

of empathy

to the songs

I used to use

to get me thru

another crushed heart

from some boy I once

tried to love

I feel cleansed this time

instead of dead inside

Sadness without

the death of goodbye


is my exquisite healing

Desires I thought forever lost

reborn thru another’s heart

just like the Love

no longer lost


Music and me




*image~ Pretty love by Krzyzanowski




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Lovefool ~ 💕




Want me ~ want me

want me

like crazy…  💕  💋

as long as it’s me 

only me ~ only me

I’m so easy


I’m a fool

for you

for you

for only you

my sweetest sin


I want you

want you

want you

just for



lovely me…  💕  💋






RIP~ George Michael

I grew up loving Wham and then George Michael.  So talented and so many memories he left in my life through his music.

I know he had many ups and downs in his lifetime, but he was human, like us all.

He was too young to die at 53.

May he rest in peace.

©justagirllost2  💕


George Michael: Pop superstar dies at 53


Singer George Michael has died at the age of 53, his publicist has said.

The star, who launched his career with Wham! in the 1980s and continued his success as a solo performer, is said to have “passed away peacefully at home” in Goring, Oxfordshire.

Thames Valley Police say they are treating the death as unexplained but there were no suspicious circumstances.

His former Wham! bandmate Andrew Ridgeley said he was “heartbroken at the loss of my beloved friend”.

Writing on Twitter and referring to Michael as “Yog”, a nickname for “Yours Only George”, he added: “Me, his loved ones, his friends, the world of music, the world at large. 4ever loved. A xx”

Andrew Ridgely tweetImage copyrightTWITTER

In a statement, Michael’s publicist said: “It is with great sadness that we can confirm our beloved son, brother and friend George passed away peacefully at home over the Christmas period.

“The family would ask that their privacy be respected at this difficult and emotional time. There will be no further comment at this stage.”

Obituary: George Michael

George Michael: A life in pictures

How the world reacted

On Instagram, Sir Elton John posted a photograph of himself with Michael, writing: “I am in deep shock. I have lost a beloved friend – the kindest, most generous soul and a brilliant artist. My heart goes out to his family and all of his fans.”

Thames Valley Police said South Central Ambulance Service attended a property in Goring at 13:42 GMT on Christmas Day.

The force said: “At this stage the death is being treated as unexplained but not suspicious.

“A post-mortem will be undertaken in due course. There will be no further updates from Thames Valley Police until the post-mortem has taken place.”

A small heart wreath and a rose are among the tributes that have begun to be left outside the front door of Michael’s home, a detached property by the River Thames.

Treatment for pneumonia

Michael, who was born Georgios Kyriacos Panayiotou in north London, sold more than 100 million albums throughout a career spanning almost four decades.

He first found fame with his schoolfriend Ridgeley in duo Wham! – reaching number one in the singles charts on four occasions – before going on to release solo albums, including the multi-million selling Faith in 1987 and its follow-up Listen Without Prejudice Vol 1.

It outsold Faith in the UK but led to Michael losing a court case with record label Sony over his frustration over how the album has been marketed.

From teen idol to long-term stardom

George Michael in 1986Image copyrightPA

His talents as a singer, songwriter and music producer made George Michael one of the world’s biggest-selling artists.

Blessed with good looks and a fine singing voice, his stage presence made him a favourite on the live concert circuit as he matured from teen idol to long term stardom.

But there were times when his battle with drugs and encounters with the police made lurid headlines that threatened to eclipse his musical talents.

As a solo artist, Michael scored a further seven number one singles in the UK with songs including Careless Whisper and Faith, and won three Brit Awards and two Grammys.

Grammy organisers said Michael’s “extraordinary talent had a profound impact on countless entertainers worldwide, and his creative contributions will live on forever”.

Troubled artist

Michael later began facing headlines for the wrong reasons.

In October 2006 he pleaded guilty to driving while unfit through drugs, and in 2008 was cautioned for possession of class A drugs, including crack cocaine.

In September 2010, Michael received an eight-week prison sentence following an incident the previous July in which he crashed his Range Rover into a shop in north London. He admitted driving under the influence of drugs and possessing cannabis.

George Michael, Andrew Ridgely in 1984Image copyrightPAImage captionGeorge Michael and Andrew Ridgely first found fame with Wham! in the 1980s

Pop stars from Michael’s heyday were joined by contemporary names in paying tribute on Twitter.

ABC frontman Martin Fry said: “Absolutely devastated to hear of the loss of @GeorgeMichael Truly brilliant talent #sad #sad #sad.”

Martin Fry tweetImage copyrightTWITTER

Duran Duran referred to the the so-called “curse of 2016” – following the deaths of David Bowie, Prince and Rick Parfitt – posting on their official Twitter account: “2016 – loss of another talented soul. All our love and sympathy to @GeorgeMichael’s family.”

The band included a picture of Michael with singer Simon Le Bon, Sting and Bob Geldof.

Duran Duran tweetImage copyrightTWITTER

Robbie Williams, whose first solo single was a cover of Michael’s song Freedom, wrote: “Oh God no …I love you George …Rest In Peace x”.

Singer Pixie Lott tweeted: “Grew up listening to the beautiful and talented @GeorgeMichael – my mama’s favourite! was a pleasure to meet him so sad to hear the news.”

Fellow pop star La Roux wrote: “Another one gone…. What a voice, what a songwriter.”

DJ Tony Blackburn said: “Unbelievable, George Michael has died at the age of 53. RIP.This dreadful year goes on and on. So sad, a real talent.”

George Michael’s UK number one singles

George MichaelImage copyrightPA

  • Wake Me Up Before You Go Go (with Wham!) – 1984
  • Freedom (with Wham!) – 1984
  • Careless Whisper – 1984
  • I’m Your Man (with Wham!) – 1985
  • The Edge of Heaven (with Wham!) – 1986
  • A Different Corner – 1986
  • I Knew You Were Waiting For Me (with Aretha Franklin) – 1987
  • Don’t Let the Sun Go Down on Me (with Elton John) – 1991
  • Five Live EP (with Queen and Lisa Stansfield) – 1993
  • Jesus To A Child – 1996
  • Fastlove – 1996

Earlier this month it was announced that producer and songwriter Naughty Boy was working with Michael on a new album.

George Michael outside Highbury Magistrates Court in 2010Image copyrightREUTERSImage captionMichael outside Highbury Magistrates’ Court in 2010 – he faced a series of run-ins with police in recent years

A documentary film entitled Freedom was also due for release next March.

In 2011, Michael postponed a series of concerts after being taken to hospital for treatment for pneumonia.

After treatment in a Vienna hospital, he made a tearful appearance outside his London home and said it had been “touch and go” whether he lived.

Doctors were said to have performed a tracheotomy to keep his airways open and he was unconscious for some of his spell in hospital.

After years of refusing to be drawn on speculation about his sexuality, Michael disclosed he was gay in 1998 after being was arrested in a public toilet in Beverly Hills, California, for engaging in a lewd act.