Stay with me

February 2, 2017 by justagirllost2 11 Comments

It’s strange, this absence from you

I don’t let myself see you,

yet, I always feel you

always Missing you

always Hungry to taste your words

~

These past days blurring

So busy and focused

Determined to not be distracted,

Right now life’s demanding every bit of me

Putting distance between all interactions

except for my children and those helping me

Knowing it has to be done

~

Feeling lost, yet freed to just be

A mother fighting for her Life

Fighting for her offspring

It’s taking every ounce of thought

every beat of heart

every bit of drive and energy

A soldier I am in my WWW111

Going up against a human monster called He

~

Wondering if you are wondering about me?

Hoping and praying that you’re feeling me

~

I reach out to you in every quiet moment

surprised at how often I think of you

Feeling afraid too, wondering

if it’s all a dream

a silly schoolgirl fantasy

of reading you being into me

~

Always a nagging ache

of missing your thoughts

and the warmth of you

Not counting days

just being

afraid of needing

Not empty because you are somehow

always with me

~

Knowing that beyond a doubt

you are the only one who holds

the key to the sacred part of me,

the part of me no one else has access to

Only you and always you

and it gives me a feeling

of warmth and security

knowing that you have been

and always are the one I want

when I think of wanting anyone

~

Certain in the certainty

of my utter fascination

and desire for you

You touch me in a way

that invades and engulfs me

in every color of feeling

~

Awakened long ago

are so many desires

swirling within

passions and new dreams

closings and openings

beginnings and endings

~

You ignite new lives in me

You bring out new sides of me

meant only to be touched by you

My needs are your needs

~

You exist

in the forefront

of my thoughts

You are a constant spark

that burns through

consumes me

 ~

You are my sun by day

my votive candlelight

on silent nights

far, but never far away

 ~

I never wane in my delight

when you cross my mind

when I let you into this corner

of the universe

that is consuming

every moment of time

 ~

You are under my skin

in my heart

reading the poems and thoughts

I send across the sky

 ~

You are mine

and my days wait for yours

 ~

Please, never let me go

I need you to stay

I need you to always find me

Let nothing get in your way

 ~

My soul has kept you tucked away

safe

in a place made for you

 ~

Only you inspire

Only you author

my unwritten parts

Only you have

this inexplicable

insanely beautifully

dark and mystical hold

over me

 ~

Every piece of me has opened up

and waits to be filled with only you

My words wait to sing to you

I wait to dance for you

~

I wait to become myself

forever meant to belong to you

 ~

So, please, don’t leave

just stay with me

~

©justagirllost2

*photo mine