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āI’m fine,” she smiled,Ā as her heart bled blood red.Ā āIt’s ok, really,” she said.
āYou go on now. Go on your way.
I’ll still breathe.
I’ll still eat & drink.
I’ll remember to brush my teeth.
I’ll still make silly little rhymes in my head.
I’ll talk to people as though
I’m really alive… not dead.
I’ll nod & blink,Ā staring into their cold eyes
pretending I’m listeningĀ as their lips move glistening,
spewing hate-filled gossipĀ & arsenic laced observations
about their deranged relations.
I’ll blow a strand of hair up in the airĀ as they rattle on about this & that
and giving tit for tat.
I’ll giggle, just a little, imagining theirĀ greedy, needy mouths are fat moth wings
flapping wildly in a hot wind,Ā connected to red moth bodiesĀ smeared all over the windshield
of a Camaro going 110.
I’ll grimace & smirk, at appropriate times,
and throw out an, āOh really? Why’s that?’
so they can begin yet another torturous chorus in their Stepford rap…
As I shall then, oh so gently,
drift~trip~slip~shift
my heart’s thoughts to You.
You, my human zen island oasis
floating in my insane headspace.
Each rotation of You spinning me true.
You~ the place I always run to.
Crying, sighing, hanging ontoĀ every single strand of words
you ever once said to meĀ of every moment of everyday.
Hoping that by replaying themĀ over & over in my dizzy head
I’ll figure out how to pourĀ enough love on you
to keep youĀ from going away.
I’m not out of time I’ll pray.
So, go on,
my love~my heart~my soul
my sun~my moon
my night~my day
Go on for now,
Here I’ll just stay,
keeping myself dreaming,
sweetly scheming of a way
to get you backĀ someday.”
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*photo by Patrick Joust
©justagirllost2  ~Monique
July 26, 2016 at 3:38 pm
I can’t even begin to tell you how much I loved this. And your voice…GORGEOUS. I know I will come back to this over and over šš
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July 26, 2016 at 4:21 pm
awww, no way! You are too, too, too wonderful, my Beauty! Thank you so! I adore you, heart, mind, body, soul… You are the real deal and I ⤠YOU! xoxoxo
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July 27, 2016 at 7:51 am
I can still hear your voice echoing through my head, that was just TOO awesome šš
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July 27, 2016 at 12:07 pm
Aw, I just wanna eat U UP!! yum yum so sweet, you are! J’adore !! š š
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October 15, 2015 at 5:28 am
You have a camber in your tone, a road that often is better travelled alone.
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October 24, 2015 at 3:06 am
I shall take that as a compliment š
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October 6, 2015 at 9:27 pm
I really love this! Awesome, spend too much time in that world myself.
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October 6, 2015 at 10:12 pm
Thank you š
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October 6, 2015 at 10:24 pm
Anytime!
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