Just a Girl Lost 2

Just a girl lost~ Here I share bits & pieces of me, in poetry, prose, music & posts from writers who inspire me.

Not Out of Time (with audio)

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https://audioboom.com/boos/2543739-not-out-of-time 💔

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“I’m fine,” she smiled, as her heart bled blood red. “It’s ok, really,” she said.
“You go on now. Go on your way.
I’ll still breathe.
I’ll still eat & drink.
I’ll remember to brush my teeth.
I’ll still make silly little rhymes in my head.
I’ll talk to people as though
I’m really alive… not dead.

I’ll nod & blink, staring into their cold eyes

pretending I’m listening as their lips move glistening,
spewing hate-filled gossip & arsenic laced observations
about their deranged relations.

I’ll blow a strand of hair up in the air as they rattle on about this & that
and giving tit for tat.

I’ll giggle, just a little, imagining their greedy, needy mouths are fat moth wings
flapping wildly in a hot wind, connected to red moth bodies smeared all over the windshield
of a Camaro going 110.

I’ll grimace & smirk, at appropriate times,
and throw out an, ‘Oh really? Why’s that?’
so they can begin yet another torturous chorus in their Stepford rap…

As I shall then, oh so gently,

drift~trip~slip~shift
my heart’s thoughts to You.
You, my human zen island oasis
floating in my insane headspace.
Each rotation of You spinning me true.
You~ the place I always run to.

Crying, sighing, hanging onto every single strand of words
you ever once said to me of every moment of everyday.
Hoping that by replaying them over & over in my dizzy head
I’ll figure out how to pour enough love on you
to keep you from going away.

I’m not out of time I’ll pray.

So, go on,
my love~my heart~my soul
my sun~my moon
my night~my day
Go on for now,

Here I’ll just stay,
keeping myself dreaming,
sweetly scheming of a way
to get you back someday.”

~

*photo by Patrick Joust

©justagirllost2  ~Monique

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Author: justagirllost2

Just a girl lost in some ways, found in others. Writing my thoughts, ideas, dreams, realities, pieces of me... not all pretty~ definitely real. I'm a mother with faith in God's divine providence that my mistakes and selfishness, my immaturity and past are all part of a journey. That all is never what it seems. That good will always claim victory and there is a plan beyond what human eyes and our fallen natures can see. My three children are my miracles, my life, my blessing and they inspire me to be a better woman and human being. I hope that you and I share and learn from each other in the beauty and reality of life on this ever evolving journey. xo ~ This is a place without masks~ without broken glass paths ~ This is a place to be free To be me~Just a girl lost XxX

9 thoughts on “Not Out of Time (with audio)

  1. I can’t even begin to tell you how much I loved this. And your voice…GORGEOUS. I know I will come back to this over and over 💜💜

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  2. You have a camber in your tone, a road that often is better travelled alone.

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  3. I really love this! Awesome, spend too much time in that world myself.

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